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This message was received November 03, 1995

Kristy — I'm scared now, I feel overwhelmed — there are so many bills and so little money sometimes I can't understand why I am making it so hard on myself. Intellectually I can understand that I am causing the events in my life. I just can't seem to master cause and effect? Help!

You, my dear, are simply projecting your energy out of your body rendering yourself (body) useless when you do. There is a certain set of rules there on the earth plane relating to function. You must be focused on the task at hand with all of yourself present. There is a tendency on the part of humans to separate the (bodies) i.e. the physical body may be in the chair, however, the mental body has gone off to play golf and the emotional body is feeling guilt and confusion. So you are simply suffering from a bit of separation. Bring your self back to center focus on the task at hand (in this case, gathering up the papers and information your bank man has asked for) then you can move on to the next task, if you have bills to pay — pay them.

Kristy — You don't understand that I can't keep writing checks with no funds to cover them they will at some point begin to bounce!!!

So what? What if they bounce.

Kristy — I will be required to cover them plus pay fees to the bank plus most likely I'll be considered unreliable so that some companies may not accept my checks anymore!

Do you need us to give you security? We can't give you something that does not exist.

Kristy — Don't tell me it doesn't exist. I know that if I had $500,000 in my personal account and $100,000 in the Angels' Loft account right now you and I would not be having this conversation. Damn it.

You will see soon that this conversation is all that you really needed it is helping you to continue to move some blocked energy in your body.

Kristy — I'm pretty tired of hearing about blocked energy being the reason for everyone's distress. It seems to me that no matter how much of this energy I try to move the more there is.

We know. You can trust us if you will allow yourself. We are unable to truly convince you of things until you see the results come to pass. Do you want to talk about the house? The baby — what? These are dreams of yours. You are simply facing the part of yourself that still doubts the fact that dreams do come true. We can take the time if you wish to discuss all the dreams you've had that came true. Can you remember dreaming of getting away from your life with (...)?

Kristy — Yes, and at times I still feel guilty for leaving and causing him and the kids pain.

That is honorable of you to take the credit for someone else's experience but we would like to remind you of a revelation you had that is a universal truth. You are only able to cause your own feelings not someone else's. It sounds a bit too simple, but you know it to be a Truth. No one can make you feel good. They can somehow contribute to your experience but inevitably the feelings are yours — they are a component of your makeup — if you are a person whose spiritual awareness is limited because of choices that been made through all previous incarnations well then your feelings are based on that amount of wisdom or understanding you have.

So lets talk about your spiritual awareness. You are eternal — aware of all things in this universe and beyond — you know that the reality on this stage called earth is illusory and therefore you will command all of the elements you have at your disposal. So go ahead command them, don't give up just because a tiny remaining piece of doubt surfaced from some remote place in your body — simply acknowledge the doubt for what it is fear and let it go so you can go back to the work at hand which is gathering the papers you need to give to the banker so we can get this formality part of your dream over with (papers the bank needed in order to get the house mortgage).

You will be in the house before Christmas because you have not changed your mind that it is what you want. Just remember when too much doubt or fear gets held onto instead of released it causes you to change your mind about what you want. Fortunately for all of us you came in here and dealt with the doubt right away, released it and therefore have not changed your mind.